There is roughly another 12 months to go and 4 more subjects to pass before i can get my LLB degree. Is a long way from where i started and the journey is exaushted, demotivating, stressfull and make you want to give up every second. Writing this to note down my current situation.
I am completely broke now, short of at least RM3500 to pay my registration and exam fees for next year, sold off everything i have that posses money value, down without even a medical insurance, in debt of RM10,000 student loan, and few hundred of credit card payment. But i think i am not going to let that worry me too much and live as normal, because there is really nothing more to cut in my daily expenses. I still got a credit card that havent max out, and i think that will allow me to manage until i graduate, the worst case is i had to get a loan from someone that is willing to help...
My physical status is much worst compare to when i just started the programme, part of the reason is because some of my bad habit that i regain during the process to cope with my stress level, and part of it is because the lack of time to work out having to do a tiring day job and manage my studies at the same time. Just notice that i cant even do a 2km sprint today with my new workout plan. But i think thing will get better from now with this new job and this new workout plan i just draw out, if i manage to complete everything i plan to complete today within 30 min, i think i am as good as my top form 3-4 years ago.
Got my second year result, doesnt get the result i expect again, and i think i got no hope of getting a 2:1 anymore, now i can just do the best i can and pray that i get at least a 2:2 so that i dont have to waste another few years as an article clerk to get my practice license. A little bit worry with the subject i am sitting for exam at this october, is been a week i did not find anything i can fully understand to read, and i think what i got in hand now is just manage to get me a borderline pass, which mean i am at a risk of failing with the high expectation from uol, need more indept understanding before the exam.
Overall i think i can rise again with this new working schedule, workout plan and study plan, i might even have an extra hour or 2 to do a quick study at home before i study in the workplace if i manage to optimise and fully utilise every min in my schedule. Pray that nothing will change anymore and i dont need to move to another new place again before i can complete the last 4 subjects to get my degree. If i can fully adapt to this new plan, i think i am fine with the last 4 subjects that i have to do. What is worrying me is, things are not as smooth, the guy that is still staying in the room i suppose to move in is not showing any sign to move out...
PS: 现在的我虽然没钱交学费，没钱吃大餐，没钱为自己添加新衣服，没钱打扮或转换形象，没钱去旅行，没钱为自己添加任何新技能，更加没钱去约会，可是还是会时不时上网买一些便宜的小玩意为自己的生活添加一点色彩，不然很容易会被这些生活压力压死的。
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